So I’ve been horribly irresponsible, in what I’d like to think is a sweet sort of way. As alluded to possibly in the previous post, I stayed up all night getting my girlfriend’s laptop ready for her father to use. It may have taken forever, but my own personal sense of pride in doing a job well has been satisfied as at 6:30am I finished my task; the laptop was ready. I passed out in bed, snuggling for just a little bit, then not so promptly dragged myself out of bed to drive her to the airport. I came home, tried to stay awake as long as I could, managed noon-ish, then fell asleep and woke up just over an hour ago, ten hours later. I’d like to think this is sweet. But it’s also horribly irresponsible. I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep at all anymore (though you never know) this evening which means I’ll be tired tomorrow at work which means the vicious cycle of not sleeping has begun. At least it’ll be sorted by tomorrow no matter what.
But this does mean that my girlfriend is no longer here, and though it was more poignant when I slept on a California King sized bed on my own, the point is nevertheless deftly tipped now that I’m on a Queen sized bed; I don’t like sleeping on my own. Not that I actually really noticed; I was too tired to. Maybe that’s like my own personal sort of subconscious defense against loneliness; I tired myself out so that I can sleep without noticing a thing.
We spoke on the phone a few times throughout the day. I requested that she let me know how her flights were going so that I’d know she made it there safely and on time. She did. She is now happily (hopefully) in Rhode Island, visiting her sister and twin nephews for the first time. The nephews, not the sister. She didn’t feel it would be very restful and/or fun the time she spends there; I hope she is mistaken. I head off to NYC this Thursday to join her in Ohio on Saturday.
I feel as if I’ve been losing a bit of focus as far as what this blog is all supposed to be about. There’s not much of China in these early posts. And though I call them early, if I were so good as to maintain a proper writing regiment, I’ll have just over five weeks of posts before we’re even in China. That’s a lot of context and background. I suppose that’s a good thing, but it makes me wonder about what the heck I’m writing. I suppose I should just accept the fact that up until some later point, this will just be a blog; a normal, every day, blog. And hope that in some unspecified amount of time later, hopefully five weeks and zero days today, it will become that much more interesting because I’m sure the day to day rambling of me doesn’t make for particularly good reading.
To the future. To the future r-expat(s).
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